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I bought a copy of this Aga-Lea film Sana Maulit Muli earlier today. I've seen this film a number of times before and I must say it's one of the very few local films that I really like watching. For starters, it's with Lea Salonga and I have admired her since I was little. Second, I really like the song Sana Maulit Muli. Not because I can relate but it's such a wonderful song, very powerful. Third, well, I really don't have a third one. Maybe the story itself since it's basically about two people who were inlove with each other but distance eventually kicked in and they grew apart. I used to appreciate this film only because the love angle really touched me. But after watching it once again, I came to appreciate it in a different light. For one, the family angle hit me stronger than it used to. Maybe because I have experienced what it feels like to say goodbye to your parents and siblings without knowing what's in store for you in a country where you would be a second class citizen, or even lower. I remembered how much I cried when I left the country 2 years ago. I don't know how much I shed but one thing's for sure, my heart was like it's gonna explode anytime because something had hit it, causing a very painful feeling. It's like it's gonna pop out anytime because the body can no longer hold it inside because of too much hurtful feeling. Although I would be living with my relatives whom I grew up with, leaving my mom and my sister and my brother was still a very painful experience. I don't know how much more tears I shed when I was in the plane. All I can remember is that I was ready to be Santa Clause's reindeer. Second thing that hit me more than before was when the lead actor worked in a Pinoy-owned restaurant. It's so sad to know that your own people would also be the same people who would take advantage of you, your status. Well, marami talagang Pinoy na siya pa ang umaabuso sa kapwa Pinoy lalo na't ito'y isa lamang TNT sa Amerika. Damn! It's a reality. It's a very sad reality. Pinoys suffer even more under the hands of another Pinoy in a foreign country when they should, we should be the one working together to get our lives better. Masakit mang isipin pero sadyang sakit na ito ng mga Pinoy di lamang sa ibang bansa kung hindi pati na mismo dito sa atin. I have heard a lot of stories from my titas and tito and a few trusted Pinoy friends of theirs when I was in the US about the bad practice of some Pinoys. I hate to admit but crab mentality is still very much an illness of Pinoys abroad. They wouldn't pull you up but instead pull you down. The lower, the better. Unlike some nationalities who would really do their best just to help their fellow countrymen get their status higher. Why can't we be like the Chinese? Or the Koreans? Or the Vietnamese? Come to think of it, sometimes, even your own relatives who have been living in that foreign country for so long wouldn't help. How much more the other people? I don't blame those Pinoys who have opted to become associated with those foreigners than with their own kind. Sometimes, it's better that way. Ang Pinoy nga naman. Saan mo man dalhin, dala-dala pa din kahet masamang pag-uugaling nakasanayan sa Pilipinas. It's sad, but true. Third, I sorta get to view the love angle in a different way. Lea's character during the first half of the film totally pissed me off. She's the weak, cry-baby, dependent woman who's life revolve almost only with her boyfriend. Luckily, in the second half of the film, she changed into the modern, girl-power kind of lady. She became an independent woman who can stand on her own, provide for herself, decide for herself. On the other hand, Aga's character in the second half of the film pissed me off. Not because I found his decision of leaving his job in the Philippines stupid but because he had turned himself into a complete fool when he almost turned into a completely different person when he changed into someone who would do anything just to please his partner. He turned his strong points into his weak points. This part of the film made me remember how my bestfriend turned into someone I hardly recognize. It made me remember how his wife pisses me off and how he pisses me off with what he's doing with his life. I just hate, despise people whose life seem to be too much dependent on someone else's who doesn't give a damn. I know it feels good to have someone you can call your own. Someone you love and who loves you back. But when it's causing your destruction, then it's not healthy anymore. You gotta cut loose to end your sufferings. Ohwell, I'm heading into a different direction with this. Anyways, I still love this film no matter what. Whoever I remember while watching it. It's still one of the few local films that I won't get tired of watching over and over again.