je12_vz09 / Code Blue

i just finished watching Code Blue (including the SP) early this morning. these caps made me finally watch it. it's a really good dorama. plus, Yamapi's damn hot! i'm glad that the drama doesn't have too much unnecessary scenes. it basically revolves around the life of the surgeons and being on the heli-rescue team. every episode's exciting. the characters are very focused.

i think i like it a lot because i'm so fed up with watching Grey's Anatomy, with too much 'anatomy' as theme. i yearn to watch a medical-inclined drama without the 'sex-every-night' or 'sex-at-the-on-call-room' scenes (which name should be changed to 'sex room since everybody's just having sex inside instead of resting) most of the time. i know i can stop watching it but i have this thing when i start watching dramas. no matter how much the story goes downhill, i still watch it to the very end.

back to Code Blue, it made me realize that surgeons are really great! though i once dreamt of becoming a doctor, never in my student-life i dreamt of becoming a surgeon. i guess i don't wanna be directly putting the lives of the patient in my hands, like literally in my hands. to be a doctor is already hard as it is and becoming a surgeon is a lot harder. CD also made me think again about RL. what it could 've been if i pursue medicine. i would've been a pedia by now. but life's full of unexpected events. just when i was a few more steps to achieve my dream, i changed my mind. more like, i felt that it wasn't my calling to be a doctor. there are so much that i wanna do that i cannot even start when i was in med school. everyday back then was a burden. every examination's a hell.

i think i have 2 in my friends' list that are in med school now. i wish 'em both the best and hopefully, they'll be great doctors in the future. as for me, i'm still at a lost, which is really scary at my age. turning a year older this year made me think of the years to come more often than i used to. i'm not sure if i'd be able to support myself when everyone's gone their own ways. it's freaking me out to think what my life would be 10-30 years from now.

but for the meantime, i'll be a fangirl and try to be stress-free.

Chrissie, i know you've been out of the Asian-fandom for ages now. i know you'd want to catch up if only you have more time than 24 hrs. a day, 7days a week. fangirling without you is a bit lonely. i really miss raving with you. nways, i'll take care of Yamapi for you. ^______^